Song of the Day:
Broken Strings by James Morrison
Broken Strings by James Morrison
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Things
Yes I know I've sucked lately at writing. And I have no excuse. My life hasn't been busy enough to warrant "not enough time" as an excuse as to why I haven't been keeping up with this thing. Probably just my mind has been too active to sit still and write out my thoughts which is unusual for me, because that's my escape, that's my release. Usually.
Things I've learned about myself lately:
1. I'm not afraid of being alone. I'm afraid of being forgotten.
2. I like being in my car by myself. But not for really long periods of time.
3. The way I've practiced "forgive and forget" is never going to be understood by a lot of people.
4. I act a lot less emotional lately, but I'm also crying at books and movies a lot.
5. I really, really like when people call me "C" for some reason.
6. I miss my Elon friends a lot more than I thought I would. And Elon. In general.
7. I worry my mother a lot more than I think I do.
8. Though it's bad for me, I forget lately that I haven't actually eaten anything.
9. Nonetheless, I've gained 6 pounds since I got home from camp. Only 7 more to go before I reach my goal weight. (: This is to say... I know what to eat to make myself gain HEALTHY weight.
10. I am not going to do well going back to a twin bed in the fall.
11. I think I would be a lot prettier if I wasn't this small.
12. The desire to be cuddled with takes over me a lot of the time.
13. I don't drink as much as I used to. And by that I just mean water... I don't have the desire to consume liquids like water and milk as much as normal. (Dehydrationlove)
14. I would rather be able to dance than to have any other talent, ever.
15. Apparently everyone thinks either Jack or I were kicked out of camp and that's why we left? I can give you guys the full explanation if you want. I promise. Neither of us was kicked out. I had to leave and Jack left to take care of me. Ask for the story if you need it.
Things I've done lately:
1. Discovered the small window in my room can open. And that people can fit through it.
2. Sat in line for four hours with my favorites before watching Harry Potter. It was a perfect day/night. (:
3. Gone to the rodeo with Kyndal A LOT.
4. Drove out to Huawni with Whitney and Claire and saw all of my loves again. Then, decided eleven o clock was the perfect time to drive back home. And didn't get in until four in the morning. At that point, sleep seemed ludicrous to me. So I stayed up and talked to Jeff and Adam via facebook chat.
5. Watched Jeff roll his own cigarettes?
6. Never missed an episode of So You Think You Can Dance.
7. Ihop. Three in the morning. Medora and Beebs.
8. Went to the lake with Megan and the Bowdon family and surrogates and had a "stranded in the middle of the lake five miles from home" adventure.
9. Snowconessnowconessnowcones.
10. Worked on the idea for my tattoo... it's going to rock.
11. Worked at the Bowdons and made money to hang out at my best friend's place (and clean, bah).
12. Met an old friend for lunch and been able to catch up.
13. Worked on watching all of Gossip Girl seasons one and two so my friends won't abandon me this next year.
14. Looked forward to my three upcoming fabulous trips. (:
15. Been trapped inside my own head and needed to get out... missed you.
A more introspective post is coming soon. I need to move past the ridiculousness that was last night before I can be serious again. And then I will tell you what I've really been thinking. I love you..
c.